Here I am, out of my protective external bubble, and into my own. I have made mistakes, angered some, confused others, fought guidance and embraced chaos. At the same time, I learned about self-growth, got acclaim for my work, touched hearts and developed positive relationships. All in the neverending learning experience that goes into the growth of a young person.
Some things are too circumstantial to explain. The best way to cover all ground, without placing blame and removing myself from responsibility is to say, no matter the intentions, make sure you are sure about every move. Whether it be an administrator you work with, or divine intervention, there is a voice that can guide you, without making you feel like you’re being intruded.
My time out of the proverbial limelight had many different motives. The first and most important was to make sure that my own sanity and health was in tact. I had publicly done several things to my image and reputation that made my very word suspect. This doesn’t stop at album info or YouTube videos. Something was aggravating me on the inside, and the last thing I wanted to do was let anyone in on how I was really feeling. Anxiety about being a “top artist”, the classic “I don’t fit in” syndrome. Things that I thought I got over came back into my memories with a vengeance.
Second, I had to get things right with my mother and family. Some things were in print and in music that required the family to talk in person. I wasn’t always around, and every family has their skeletons. I was just very verbal about such, because I didn’t have the forum to do so. I spewed no venom, but the very notion of condescending text towards family was a bad influence on my fans and a negative indicator towards professionals.
When the news broke about me being released from the label, I wasn’t mad. Just frustrated at the fact I would be asked a million pressing questions about it. My emotions were already numb at personal stuff, and I knew that being the (insert adjective here) of the music business would make me a humor target. Whatever I thought. All I wanted to do was release my music to the masses and be heard on the scale of legends. As it turns out, not only were a lot of people listening, but because of the vast quantity of music, it was hard to keep up with. For the masses and for the company I worked for.
Needless to say, I was on edge, but internally.
I wanted a comeback that is both epic and subtle. I recorded about 4 projects, one of which being “Normalcy”. I had so much on my mind. Don’t ever think I stopped doing music. I just had a heavy heart and to be blunt, there will never be such an insane barrage of Charles Hamilton music. But returning to the surface with a project that both explains and soothes was key. I’m very proud of “Normalcy”. It is the first time where there is no underlying plot or theme to follow. Want to know about the label situation, “Enter the Scope”. Wonder why I haven’t slept with all the women in Brooklyn after the success of “Brooklyn Girls”? Listen to “She’s Purrty”. My main concerns? “Baby Says I Want”.
“Normalcy” in effect is the interview that clears the air, starring Mike Rofone as the host.
Also, I shyed away from my regular “lo-fi” sound, to let the people know I hear the complaints of clarity that have mocked my music since its first push of the play button. I still have “edgy”, “lo-fi” music, but I would rather everyone say “Not only is the music good, but it doesn’t sound weird”. Who knows what sound the world may hear, especially in the dawn of the new decade.
Time will allow me to reveal who I am working with as far as getting the music out there. Right now, embrace me for who I am and know that I love all Starchasers, supporters, family… Everyone that has played a role in the baptism of Charles Hamilton. I am appreciative, and I am working on making this year and every other as progressive and CALM as chances allow.